News & Updates
April 30, 2018
If you dread Sunday nights because of Monday mornings. If you are hammering the snooze button twenty times before you drag yourself out of bed, only to rush around the house so you can barely make it out the door on time. If you get sick to your stomach as you open your email each day, dread seeing your co-workers or your boss, and you’ve become a slave to the clock, just waiting for permission to bust out, fly home, and crack a beer. Or if you have become so shell-shocked by menial, unimportant conflict, you’ve conditioned yourself to simply tread water and walk on eggshells so as to avoid stress which really has no meaning to you…you are ready.
I have come to the conclusion we all reach a point in our lives where everything is telling us we’re ready to make a change. All of the aforementioned symptoms are things we have all experienced at one point, if not currently. But somewhere in human evolution, the grind got confused with misery, and we convinced ourselves those feelings were part of life, and they’re what you’re supposed to feel in the illustrious pursuit of “success”. So we waste away our time, and bury our passions, all so we can look back on years and years of showing up, with the only reward being a monthly retirement check so we can do nothing for the rest of our lives and get paid for it.
So you have to ask yourself, do you feel like you’re accomplishing nothing just so you can responsibly retire and get paid to do nothing? If you have found yourself silently nodding as you read along…you are ready. You are ready for a change. You are ready to take a chance. You are ready to walk blindly into your new life, because you literally have nothing to lose. If you are going to experience pain and suffering for something, make it something you are truly passionate about, because pain and suffering without passion is simply suppression. As soon as you realize you are risking your life by not taking a risk on your life, you will be ready to leave that which is giving you nothing for something, in exchange for something which can give you everything. You’re ready. So let’s go. -CPT Ryan
April 9, 2018
Leave Me Behind
I follow you everywhere you go, I precede you everywhere your headed, and I stay behind everywhere you’ve been. Sometimes I can be the furthest thing from your mind, and other times I will consume your every thought and every action. I will require the utmost commitment throughout your life, but even if you stray away, and we lose touch, our relationship can always be rekindled and repaired, as long as you are willing to put in the work.
My existence is based solely on character. I have little interest in skill, accomplishments, accolades, or defeats. Character. That’s what I care about. I don’t just want to know about what you did for people, I want to know how you made them feel, how you affected the paths of their lives, and how you changed their outcomes in a positive way; all of which I expect to drive you through your own adversity, laziness, and impulsivity, by igniting the flame of passion and laying a foundation of purpose.
I am your legacy, and my life is in your hands. I can live forever, or you can take me to the grave with you. It all depends on whether or not you are willing to sacrifice, whether or not you are willing to suffer, and whether or not you are willing to work. You let me live, and in return, I give you a life worth living, worth loving, and worth calling your own. Now that we’re acquainted, we’ve got work to do, because everyday is another opportunity to leave me behind for an eternity, so let’s get going. – CPT Ryan
March 12, 2018
When it feels forced. When the harder you try, the worse it works out. When everything you say is misunderstood, and everything you do is misinterpreted. When you start thinking something is just plain wrong with you, and there is no way up and no way out because, really, who would want you anyway? When you start having those feelings, and they start creeping into every aspect of your life, realize that you aren’t a failure, you have simply misapplied your passion into something which is not compatible with what you have to offer, or what you were meant to do.We get so spun up about what we should do with our lives, we lose sight of what we could do with our lives. We mistake acceptance for success, and chase the accepted instead of the unexpected, one day realizing we have worked ourselves into something we never really wanted but thought we needed, and now we just can’t fake the funk any longer. And that’s okay.It’s okay to be a misfit. It’s okay to lack acceptance. It’s okay to have gone down the wrong path, and it’s certainly okay to change course in exchange for what you were meant to do. The most successful among us, the truly successful ones, not the most distinguished or most decorated, but the ones who made a life of chasing their dreams, were all once the misfits who were misunderstood and misinterpreted. So make no mistake about it, you may not fit in, but why would you want to anyway?
February 26, 2018
Read For Swagger
I just don’t care anymore. I can’t. Ever since I found what it is I was meant to do, and what I was truly passionate about, I stopped caring altogether. I don’t care that it doesn’t make sense to you. It shouldn’t. I don’t care that you wouldn’t do it if you were me. You’re right. This is my grind. My dream. My life. It has nothing to do with you, unless you’re part of my tribe…in which case you better believe I’m the ride or die you want in your corner, because I don’t even care about my own welfare when it comes to my team.I don’t care about what’s never been done before. That’s what I want. That’s what I need. I can’t do it like everyone else. It’s not in my DNA, and it’s certainly not in my plan. I can’t just read the book, I need to be the book. I want to be the one who showed up, guided by passion and fueled by purpose, who dropped a change bomb on the world that suddenly became the new “way to do it”, haters and naysayers be damned.I don’t care if you think this side of me is too bold, too reckless, or even downright arrogant. That’s the perk of figuring out who you are, and where you want to be. I don’t have time to care about what you think anymore. I don’t care if it’s hard, I don’t care if it hurts, I don’t even care if I fail, because even if I fail 100 times, you better believe I’m coming back for that 101. My life is no longer ruled by that which I can’t have an effect on. My life is now ruled by my passion, my purpose, and my people. As for all the rest…well…I could really care less.
February 12, 2018
Don’t Let the Bastards Get You Down
The snipers are out there…waiting. Waiting to shoot down your pride, hamper your progress, and destroy your purpose. Waiting to take shots at your new ideas, deflate your lofty goals, and destroy your unreasonable dreams. Their aim is your heart and mind, along with any place else they can make it hurt, using your shortfalls and self-doubt as their ammunition. And all along, it is their own desperate sense of self-loathing, lingering insecurities, and missed opportunities that drive them to pull that reassuring trigger.To them I say: Take. The f*king. Shot. Seriously, just take it. Take the shot, because more times than not, I’m on the move and you’re going to miss. Take the shot to remind me to keep going. Get some hits even, because the occasional hit will ignite me, expose where I need work, and keep me hungry. Fire away, I don’t mind, because when you pull the trigger,you commit to exposing who you are, what you fear, where you are weak, and when life makes you uncomfortable, all of which I truly hope you someday overcome.Don’t let the bastards get you down. They’re always going to be out there, just waiting for a chance to take that shot at you; because it’s easier to take a shot at someone else, than it is for them to take a look at the person in the mirror. Expect it. Every endeavor, every sacrifice, and every triumph will always be riddled with the bullets of those not daring enough to confront who they are, in order to realize who they could be. Let’s face it, none of us are bulletproof, but we are all capable of surviving the hits along the way, just muster the courage to keep going and it will all be worth it in the end.
January 15, 2018
What The Hell
And then one day you wake up and ask yourself…what…the hell…am I doing? Maybe you started down a certain path because you thought it was the right, or responsible, thing to do. Maybe you were trying to make other people in your life proud of you. Maybe you were subconsciously covering up your insecurities or failures. Or maybe, you don’t really even know why you went where you went, or why you are what you are. Regardless of motive, the day of reckoning between what you’re doing, and what you were meant to do, comes to all of us in due time. The question is, when that day comes…what…the hell…are you going to do about it?The difference between pain and misery is that pain is suffering with a solution on the horizon; misery is suffering with no resolution in sight. When you wake up and realize you were meant to do something else in life, don’t let that realization turn into festering misery as you watch your shot at a better life pass you by, knowing exactly what you could have done to make it happen. Take the short term pain of starting over, and use it to start laying a foundation for change in order to hone in on what you really want out of life, and to leave the feeling of being unfulfilled behind you.So good morning, we hope you slept well, but the day of reckoning between you and who you’re meant to be is here, and it’s time to figure out what the hell you’re gonna do about it. Whether it’s your job, your relationships, your hobbies, or your side hustle, let’s get rolling and stave off misery by lining up your plan and taking some action. There will still be pain and there will still be suffering, but your pain has a plan ready and willing to manifest itself in the form of passion…you just have to get up and go get it.
December 4, 2017
Lost in Thought
If thoughts are the spark, then words are the fire. As important as it is to have a vision, to see a path to your purpose, and to obsess about your passion, sometimes it’s hard to get the wheels in motion. Be it fear, lack of self-confidence, or devoted opposition, the greatest version of ourselves can sometimes become stifled, and ultimately lost in thought forever if we let it. When that happens, it’s not time to quietly sit back watch life pass you by, it’s time to free your mind through speaking your mind, because if you can think it, you can speak it; and if you can speak it, you can seek it.
When you know you are meant to do something in life, so much so that it resonates through ever fiber in the very fabric of your soul, you can’t just allow your fears to silence it, you need to speak it. You need to speak it like it’s a language unto itself, one which only you can truly understand, issuing yourself such a bold challenge you will have no choice but to take action and grind forward, day in and day out, just so you can put your money where your mouth is.
Spark thoughts, and spit fire. Tell not only the world, but yourself, what the deal is, and how you plan to seal it. There is absolutely nothing wrong with putting your back against the wall and forcing yourself to fight forward, because that’s when we fight the fiercest, when it’s do or die and there’s no exit strategy. Set the ultimatum by speaking the ultimatum, and take yourself from being lost in thought, to finding the life you always dreamt of was only a few bold verbs away. – CPT Ryan
October 2, 2017
You Are Not Done
You are not done. Not even close. You may have fallen or peaked, lost or won, but no matter the case, you are not done. Life is nothing but ups and downs, twists and turns, and if you are living with fire, you’re bound to get burned. But don’t let the trials dampen your flame, because in the end, they’re never to blame. So pick yourself up, and rage like the sun, because I can tell you for sure, that you are not done.
You’re in a story which must be lived to be told, and it may not be clear until you’re wise, gray, and old. But the very last page ends the same as page one, you may be a lot of things, but you are not done. You are not done ’til you draw you last breath, and even with that, there is life after death. Because after your gone, and become part of the earth, your story lives on, and gives new stories birth. Never forget, through the joy and the hurt, you have to wake up tomorrow, and complete your life’s work.
You are here for a reason, to find your passionate purpose, and only hard work will let passion surface. You’re on an endless search to find your life’s grind, and to create a passion which can consume all your time. Try just for a moment to see through your mind’s eye, and it is from that point where you can begin your climb high. You’re not just a passenger on a leisurely ride, so grab the keys and throw the car in drive. There is never a promise it will be easy or fun, but I can promise you this…you are not done. – CPT Ryan
July 31, 2017
A World Apart
I know where you live. It is a place which is heard but not seen, impartial but not fair, and right in front of everyone, but always behind their backs. It is a place where opinions are formed by insecurity, where facts are skewed by jealousy, achievement is marred by resentment, and all that is good is perceived as a threat. It is a place masquerading as “knowing better”, but in the background fear of the unknown runs wild, perpetually being covered up by the highly sought after “I told you so’s” and empty bravado.
This dark world is not singular in nature, as it is comprised of an unlimited array of locations, forms, and constructs. It is in comment sections and anonymous responses, chat room threads and locker room walls, tweets, posts, notes, texts, blogs, columns, commentaries, and conversations. It is a world that can consume its inhabitants, just as much as it can consume those whom it is trying to dismantle. And it is a world where the perpetrators generally go unpunished, while the victims are left to quietly shoulder the burden of this trolling society.
This is not my world. This is not where I live. Although your world has caught me a few times, and I have even faltered into some of its practices, you will never consume me. I live in a world enamored by the unattainable, enabled by the struggle, and enthralled with the risk. I live in a place where I am motivated when other people succeed, a motivator when they fail, and both outcomes fuel my passion and create my purpose. The solitary thing our worlds have in common is a chase for something we’ll never catch; I will keep chasing perfection, while you keep chasing me…and quite honestly, I like it that way.