October 16, 2017
Regret. I may have you, but you are far from having me. Sometimes I see you at every turn, and sometimes you’re just a distant memory. But you’re always there. Just waiting to remind me of what was, what could have been, and what may never be. Although there are times when you torment me, you have also freed me more than you’ll ever know, because it was you who freed me from myself, my limits, and my fears.
All those times I didn’t know if I could try again…you were there to remind me why I should. All those times I was too scared to take that blind leap of faith…you were there to remind me of how I’d feel if I didn’t. Those few times I hit rock bottom, rock bottom so bad that it felt like even hope had turned its back on me…only you were left to will me to move forward, one painstaking inch at a time. And when I succeed…that’s when you are the loudest, proving to me that you, and all your forms, are why I’m here today.
Regret, I’m convinced you are one of the most powerful and misunderstood forces on this earth. You have been the cause of many great tragedies and triumphs alike. You have humbled the strong, emboldened the weak, and provided the world with a sense of perspective. So Regret, I’m pretty glad I have you. In all actuality, I need you. But know that you will never…ever…have me; because you may be all powerful, but watch your back, because so am I.